June 11, 2013

Appt. with Dr. K & Looking Forward

Thank you everyone for your thoughtful comments and letting us know you have been thinking of us and have been praying for our family.

I am still waiting for the miscarriage to start. I went off the meds on Friday evening and everything was supposed to get started in 3-5 days. So, today is day 4 and I have no signs of cramping or anything. So, I will take this all as graciousness from our Lord and I have been using my days to spend time with the littles doing "little" things and spending time with the olders planning their studies and activities for the coming academic year.

My appointment with Dr. K was yesterday afternoon. He said that he would like to see us back in September and they would be holding a spot for us. Rhea and I will be looking through the donor profiles we have been sent by the NEDC and be prayerfully considering the next little ones the Lord intends for us to adopt. I will be 46 in October, so according to NEDC guidelines I must have my final transfer with their program before I turn 46. So, that leaves the September transfer cycle as the one we will be need to be a part of. I will save my life as an "older" momma for another post as I have been asked since I have given birth to two kiddos post 40. : )

Besides giving my body time to regroup after two back to back transfers and miscarriages, having a couple of months to fund this next transfer will be nice to have. Thankfully, this adoption/transfer we will only need $6,000. This is the smallest amount we have needed to date. You all know me and our family. We will work hard to raise money. It's a little too early for pumpkin bread, but I bet our kiddos will be thinking of something.

It has been difficult at times to jump forward while still mourning and reflecting on our 8 little ones, but we rejoice that their souls have been released from their frozen state. Six of them grew and grew even for a couple of short weeks before leaving this earth. All eight of them we hold great hope are all in heaven right now surrounded by beautiful praises and song for eternity. What joy that picture brings my heart.

Even with the pain, I am ever so grateful that our Lord has chosen us to parent these special babies who are frozen. God doesn't tell us how long we will have with any of them. We make ourselves available to our Lord. We are obedient to His call to adopt those who may not be with us very long at all. We realize even more the miracle our Sarah Faith truly is.

We have Room for More if that is His will. We have Room for More, however long He calls us to parent any of the children he has entrusted to our care living in our home or in the womb. We have Room for More in our home, whether through adoption, our children marrying, our grandchildren & through opening our home to our family, friends, and those the Lord brings our way.

September will be the end of our EA journey. It may end in miscarriage once again. It may end much more differently than that. We trust our Lord no matter the outcome. We are so grateful to all of you. We know that so many people loved these babies too. Family, friends, and strangers--you all gave your earnings, your gifts, your time, your prayers, your encouragement, all to see these little ones have an opportunity to continue their little lives. We all have been mourning. We thank you all again for loving our babies!

9 comments:

  1. Beautifully written. I have so much hope for your Family for September. Praying for your physical and emotional strength.

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  2. Your strength and faith are inspiring. Praying for you and your family.

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  3. Love this, Shannon! I know all too well how painful it is to lose all those precious adopted babies. I don't understand the "whys" but I do trust my God and His plan. Thank you for being obedient to His calling. Love ya!

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  4. Absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!!! Thanks so much for sharing your faith during the struggles of life!!! Hugs!!!

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  5. Shannon, I'm so happy to see a post from you. It is beautifully written, your faith is so evident in your writing. I'm not sure I would have that much grace to go through what you are going through. I continue to pray, selfishly, that my plan is part of is plan as well. If you decide to continue with another transfer in September, I am hoping that we will be able to meet up this time as I will have my transfer then as well.

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  6. I love your heart, my friend! Thanks for writing such a beautiful post. You bring great glory to our Savior!

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  7. Agreeing with all the previous comments - this post was thoughtfully and beautifully written! Praying with you that the Lord's will be done!!! HUGS!

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  8. So well written. It brought me to tears. Many hugs and prayers for you

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  9. If you guys do go in sept. we are in that cycle with our remaining embies. Hoping sept is the month for all of us to be successful

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