August 7, 2013

Protocol Arrived

Okay, this is happening so very fast. I mean time was creeping by it seemed leading up to my last two transfers. Now, things are happening so very quickly!

I opened my inbox and there was my protocol from Katie, my nurse, from the NEDC. I cannot believe I need to call and schedule my ultrasound appointments, order my box of medications, and type up my dosing chart to hang in the bathroom. I am still shaking my head as I type this!

Exciting, for sure, but lots of butterflies are included as well! There are so many thoughts running through my head. I read on a fellow EA cycle momma's blog recently about feeling detached after so much loss going through EA and that post has stuck with me. Am I truly busy with all the kiddos this summer and our back to school prep or am I, in a way, "detaching" myself from the possible pain and loss after going through 2 miscarriages with EA in the last 5 months?

This is definitely something I need to consider. Because although the latter would be understandable, it would not be what I need to do. I need to trust the Lord and not be fearful. I need to be humbled that the Lord chose us even one more time to adopt little babies from the freezer once again. I need to approach this adoption like all the others. These are little lives who Rhea and I already love. I need to look forward to our "Gotcha Day" just as I would if we were going to fly to bring home our child from China. So, whether I am just very busy or whether I am truly distancing myself from this upcoming FET to protect emotions, either way, it's time I focus on my body and preparing it to receive our new babies and surrendering my fears and anxiety to the Lord. He will carry me through!


  1. Amen, sister! Love your thinking, always! Praying for you all as you approach another transfer!

  2. I just received my protocol today too. Things are starting to feel real!

  3. How exciting! Praying for you as you prepare for your cycle. :)

  4. I was just thinking of you tonight. Peace to you friend!

  5. So exciting! Praying for you!


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