March 29, 2013

The Wait Is Over

We received the call a little while ago. Our beta was 5. Dr. K said that this was what is called a chemical pregnancy where one or more of the embryos tried to implant, but were unsuccessful. The nurse told me that Dr. K wanted me to stop my Estrace and PIO and my cycle should start soon. I am to go in for another blood test on Monday to make sure my body has gone back to zero. 

This is a sad time for us, yet joyful. 

We are sad because we love and miss our 4 precious babies. 

We are joyful that they are no longer in their frozen state, but have great hope that they are in heaven this very minute with their Heavenly Father. 

We are joyful that the Lord entrusted us to parent these little ones for even such a short time. 

We are hopeful as we know there are four more siblings who remain frozen, entrusted to our care by our Lord. We are called to move forward to parent.

We are joyful for our Lord's mercy and love and patience and grace in our lives.

We are joyful for the beautiful grace given to us through the birth of Elizabeth (our reversal baby) and Sarah (our precious girl given to us by the Lord through EA).

We are joyful as we move forward, though sad, that He has great things for all of His children!

For a day in your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of wickedness.  For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly.  O LORD of hosts, blessed is the one who trusts in you! Psalm 84: 10-12


We love you sweet babies. 

18 comments:

  1. I am so sorry Shannon!! Praying the Lord would strengthen and encourage you as you grieve the loss of these children. It is so wonderful that they were given the chance of being born, but like you said there is great hope that they are living in heaven right now with our great God! We love you and are remain hopeful for the next FET.

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  2. With tears in my eyes...I'm so sorry you won't get to hold any of these precious babies on Earth!!! You are beyond amazing in your willingness to continue to praise Him!!! Sending lots of love and hugs your way!!!

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  3. Such sad news. You express yourself with such grace and composure - God has clearly filled you with His love in this difficult time. Prayers and hugs.

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  4. I'm sorry for your loss, Shannon.

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  5. Love your perspective and attitude! Thinking of you and praying for you as you move forward.

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  6. I'm so sad for you and your family. I'll be praying for you all.

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  7. I am sorry for your loss. Praying for you and Rhea. (((HUGS)))

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  8. I just love you, Shannon. You are such an encouraging lover of our God! Your courage and praise give Him so much glory. I am praying that the next cycle holds a different outcome.

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  9. I'm so sorry, Shannon! I know what it's like, because I've had eight chemical pregnancies myself. (They implanted long enough to result in positive pregnancy tests). My last one was in late January (28th).

    I grieve with you, and yet, rejoice with you -we know our babies are waiting for us in Heaven.

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  10. Praying for you today. I love the verse you posted. Such a beautiful reminder of the joy from our heavenly Father.

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  11. Such a bittersweet post...Bitter because your babies are no longer with you, but sweet because your heart in this post shows Jesus! ((Hugs))

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  12. I'm so sorry to hear this. I know your heart must be very heavy right now.

    But what perspective you have as a believer. Our pastor talked about 1 Thessalonians 3:13 this morning - Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope.

    Praying for you and your family during this time.

    Tracy (fellow Snowflake mom)

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  13. I'm so sorry for your loss Shannon. We'll be praying for you.

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  14. I am so sorry. You will meet them in heaven.

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  15. Oh Shannon, I am so sorry! :'( I'll bet it has to be hard for your kids too. Tough stuff. :( Sending prayers your way.

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  16. i'm so sorry, and yet you are an encouragement to so many. God bless you.

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  17. So sorry, we are also grieving our embryo and processing this loss. Thinking of your family during this difficult time

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