The Wait Is Over

We received the call a little while ago. Our beta was 5. Dr. K said that this was what is called a chemical pregnancy where one or more of the embryos tried to implant, but were unsuccessful. The nurse told me that Dr. K wanted me to stop my Estrace and PIO and my cycle should start soon. I am to go in for another blood test on Monday to make sure my body has gone back to zero. 

This is a sad time for us, yet joyful. 

We are sad because we love and miss our 4 precious babies. 

We are joyful that they are no longer in their frozen state, but have great hope that they are in heaven this very minute with their Heavenly Father. 

We are joyful that the Lord entrusted us to parent these little ones for even such a short time. 

We are hopeful as we know there are four more siblings who remain frozen, entrusted to our care by our Lord. We are called to move forward to parent.

We are joyful for our Lord's mercy and love and patience and grace in our lives.

We are joyful for the beautiful grace given to us through the birth of Elizabeth (our reversal baby) and Sarah (our precious girl given to us by the Lord through EA).

We are joyful as we move forward, though sad, that He has great things for all of His children!

For a day in your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of wickedness.  For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly.  O LORD of hosts, blessed is the one who trusts in you! Psalm 84: 10-12


We love you sweet babies. 

More Changes

I spoke with the nurse & doctor at RE's office today. Based on my estradiol level, I can officially stop wearing the estrogen patches. My progesterone was 20. Dr. M is comfortable with this level and I am to remain on the Crinone progesterone supplement and retest my level in 2 weeks.

Next, we discussed my ultrasound report from yesterday. He would like me to get into see an OB sooner than later. He said he would like my OB to evaluate the twin situation himself. Here are the reasons why:

• sometimes my RE has seen a twin that is slower to grow, but catches up. He didn't want us to get our hopes up, but wanted the OB to do his own ultrasound and determine what is going on with twin B.
• Since I have APS, an autoimmune blood clotting disorder, my RE would like Baby B to be examined thoroughly by ultrasound and to check the blood flow/circulation to Baby A.
• If twin B has stopped growing, more than likely my body will reabsorb the baby, but there is a chance I will experience spotting and possible bleeding. With me being on blood thinners, this could be a concern. Thus another reason for me to become an established patient with my new OB in case of an emergency.

I had an appointment scheduled for Thursday with the OB, but after the RE called, he suggested me going in tomorrow if possible. Dr. M (my new OB) was able to get me in tomorrow afternoon. Rhea will not be able to be with me for this appointment as he already had meetings scheduled tomorrow.

Please pray for the doctors to have wisdom regarding my pregnancy and for my all day morning sickness to be manageable for travel and during the appointment. Thank you everyone. I will update tomorrow as soon as I am able.

We are Home from the Ultrasound Appt.

We have one little baby growing with a strong heartbeat of 150 and measuring right on schedule at 8 weeks. It is still so amazing to me after all this time to be able to hear the baby's heartbeat at such an early stage of life. So, without further adieu, we introduce our little baby.

As you know, we had 3 little ones transferred. One of our babies never implanted and we lost he/she very early on. Our other baby just recently stopped growing. We were so excited to see Baby B today. However, no heartbeat was detected and he/she was only measuring a little past 6 weeks. In memory of our little pumpkin, I share with you our sweet baby picture that we will cherish.

It was a bittersweet morning full of tears of joy & sadness. We are in mourning, yet are jubilant at God's great blessing of continued life in my womb. We are prayerful that our little one will fight, grow, and live for us to teach him/her of God's amazing love, grace, and power through His Son. We rejoice in God's goodness, grace, and mercy!

Last Day of Bed Rest

I'm still here : ) The hotel where we are staying charges quite a bit for internet in our room, but since I have been a VERY good patient and have stayed in bed, Rhea gave me internet for my last day of bed rest. So, wow, where do I start???

Well, first I am going to thank everyone for their prayers over the last week. I can tell you that your prayers were felt and appreciated by all of us. I have so much to share that has happened over the last few days, but until I can get to it all, know that seeing God work through each step has been humbling, joyful, strengthening, & truly peaceful.  There has been sadness as we grieve the loss of 3 of our adopted children & there has been great joy as 3 of our adopted children are snuggly in my womb.

I will share all of the journey from Thursday afternoon to Friday morning soon. I am journaling that and will share that when I finish it. Rhea and I are both forever changed by adopting and are honored to have traveled this road thus far. In the past, each time I think I "might" be pregnant, I count the days and am anxious to take a pregnancy test. This time around, I will wait until the agreed upon time Rhea and I set for me to take a hpt. I will be heartbroken if our babies do not live, however, I have great HOPE in Christ and He is my focus and first love.

The transfer went smoothly. They did not give me any pictures to take home of our babies, but when the embryologist brought them into the procedure room and put them into the incubator, she called Rhea over and the nurses helped me out of bed (I was on Valium by then) to go look through the microscope to see our babies. Rhea and I had tears in our eyes. Three of our precious little ones were alive and looking strong. I was escorted back to bed and as we waited for Dr. M., the embryologist told us that all three looked strong one was lagging behind a bit, but was continuing to develop. She said she prefers to grade them on a scale of A to C. She said that 2 of ours babies were A- and honestly I forgot the grade of our other baby. Truly, grades mean nothing to me. We have physically seen with our own eyes how God took the weakest to live and we know He can continue to grow these babies in my womb.

Medically, my estrogen came back a bit low on Friday, so the Dr. upped my estrogen patches to 6 from 4. Rhea will go by the clinic today to pick up some extra ones until I can have some more delivered by the pharmacy to my house. I go into the clinic tomorrow for another estrogen & progesterone blood draw. After that, back to Houston we go. Our beta blood test in on Monday the 27th a week from today! Rhea and I agreed that when I come home from getting my blood drawn that morning, I can come home and take a hpt.

I have been blessed to be a mother of 16! I have 4 in the other room finishing brunch, I have great hope that 9 are in heaven, and I have 3 in my womb. God is incredibly gracious. I am in awe.

Moving to transfer

My friend Shannon has asked me to post this update for her as time is short.

To the Glory of God 3 babies have survived and will be transferred at 12:30 today.  The Robison family is praising the Lord and holding fast to Him as they proceed in faith to transfer.  Shannon will update in greater detail about this amazing night; how "God has chosen the foolish things of the world to shame  the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to shame the things which are strong." 1 Corinthians 1: 27  The 3 babies that have survived were the ones that were not expected to survive the thaw-the weakest.  We serve a mighty God of whom "all things have been created by Him and for Him.  And he is before all things, and in Him all things hold together." Colossians 1: 16-17

Following the transfer Shannon will be on bed rest.  Thank you for your continued prayers for this dear family as they are faithfully trusting the Lord with the next step in this adoption journey.

~Gina

To My Hurting Friends

I heard earlier this week of someone I know who had to say goodbye to their baby too soon. I found out today that 2 people who are very special to me are saying goodbye to their precious ones as I type this. That is three times in three days.

Rhea & I have said goodbye to 6 little ones and though we know God's will and His sovereignty reigns, it still hurts. It hurts to remember and it hurts to know people who I love are hurting. We were chosen to be mothers for such a short time, but we were chosen. His mercy and grace overwhelm me.

I clung to this song during my first miscarriage and I have for every one since.







I am praying for you sisters.